Academic, emotions and a cheap blogshop. (No relation between them)

I need to prioritize my academic first this semester. And I won't let my sister catch me sleeping right before the exam day again (on so many times). Dorothy was laughing when I told her my modules for semester one. I still have no idea why did I choose an ARTS GEM- Japan studies when I was a science student. Don't ask me what my CAP is, because it's beyond imaginably low. I definitely need to be more organize in semester 2. I still have one module to bid and it's the last round already.

Anyway, the reason why I choose sociology over psychology is because sociology deals with aggregate but psychology deals with individual. I am afraid I will start investing personal emotion in future when I work if I take psychology. To cut it short, let's just say my experience in that investment never seemed to pay off very well. It's like stock market with the red "down" arrow. Lately, I even thought of spreading risks when it comes to friends. I need to have a lot of friends to hang out with instead of sticking to just one person, or just one group like I used to. Anyway, I think generally people are nice, but not as in nice until they can prioritize you as their "number one" in their friend list. There are other people more significant like boyfriends, and to a lesser crowd of my age, family. The ideal notion of "best friend" has since sound like a child play to LX at the age of 19. Perhaps "good friends" is a better term to describe people around me.

That's only the "friend" part of my emotional energy, "love" is much worse or maybe better. Because I have nothing to talk about. Or maybe I'm pretending I have nothing to talk about, so I actually believe in what I pretend. Anyway, it's very hard to justify what is "real" when it comes to feelings. Everything feels so real, yet you don't see it, so are they even real? One thing I learned about feelings is that it is only "real" when you verbalise it/write it down, hence I am not going to share much in HTHT sessions anymore. And I never did.

To kill the tense moment I always create in my blog... I found a really cheap blogshop online: http://www.fashionholict.com/index.php. I haven't tried it though.